Working things out through you.

The house- photo credit LBriggs

There's been so many questions in the last few days, it's prompted me to write. I've shared this house in different pictures a few times over the years, always with the thoughts of "what if" , but what ifs are dreams. They aren't based in the realm of this world, but things of the ether untouchable, unattainable, and in this case unlivable.   

In nursing we use SBAR when giving a report, in order to keep as much emotion out of this as possible I think I will use that format myself. 

S- Situation

This is my house- a hundred years old- 3 bedroom 1 bath sitting on 25+ acres. 

B- Background

This section could be so long. My mom loved this house, she passed away here. My husband and I had begged the people who had a lifetime right to the house to let us live there, we were always denied, due to me being a witch, due to me not doing somethings they wanted me to do, due to them wanting to dangle the carrot of a dream but never really intending to allow that dream to come true. We had given up on that dream and made our home here. For some reason thinking those people would live forever and not making any plans to not be where we are now (like dummies I know). In the last week we found out the lifetime right had expired and here we are back to the situation-- This is my house. 

A-Assessment

The house needs a new roof, the well is attached to another house that is not mine so a new well is in order, the wiring is old old glass fuses and not breakers so an electrician is needed (maybe not this second but not too far in the future). There are issues but none too great that can not be fixed, like most things money is all it would take. There are two points I want to add to the assessment portion, the kitchen is amazing, and the room my mom left this world in is so close to a time capsule it's a little bit scary.  All the other rooms have been painted in the last 20 years at least once, not that one. The wallpaper boarder they tried to take down is still there doing it's best to hang on, it's as though its waited for us to come and change her vision to ours. ( I promised to leave emotion out of this, I am failing.)

R- Recommendation

This is tricky as I don't know. We have a new set of what ifs and this set is scary.  My instructors at school would be so disappointed right now. Nurses are supposed to have at least an idea of something they can recommend, and here I sit not knowing what would be the best course of action.

The last couple years, I had pretty much given up on my homesteading hopes, the will be to self sufficient, even in part, has turned to simply feeding animals, and making it through to the next day. I am almost done with school, I figured I'd just work 40+ hours a week, give in to the grind and the commercial way of life. The thoughts of anarchy and bucking the system by making my own, has turned into what's quick and easy and I don't have to think about. So here we are recommendation-less.     

Keep an eye out, as I continue to work things out through you who read, feel free to leave a comment if you have any recommendations, I would love to read them. As always Love (so much love) and Light yall!